i just found out that the "boyfriend" is in Iowa. he didn't tell me i looked at his facebook profile and saw his status updates saying he was in iowa. WTF? he couldn't call? he couldn't leave a message on my wall. No, not at all. and it doesn't help that he hasn't called once this summer. it makes me wonder why i even said yes in the first place. i thought the first boyfriend a person has is really great and stuff but so far the relationship has sucked big time. and what sucks even more is that i really like him so that just makes everything so much worse. Umi, i really wish you were here. you can make everything seem alright again. all i want to do right now is hurt something and i'm not a violent person. in fact it's very difficult to piss me off to this point but.... i don't know whether i want to kill him, scream, hurt something, cry or what. i need a hug or something