So, hey there people. I really don't update this journal thing very much, but I'm here now to complain about the fact that I don't have a scanner and that i really need to start drawing on paper that would fit on a scanner so i could actually upload it onto DA. I have so many works that just sit around my room or hang on my wall that not many people really get to see. gah! Lately, however, i've been Minecrafting every chance that i get cause i am completely addicted. i found this MASSIVE underground cavern that is now becoming my mansion. XD

i don't want to seem like im whining or complaining but i need to vent and DA seems like the best place. Why can break ups never be painless? Why does someone always have to get hurt? the transition from being boyfriend/girlfriend to just friends is so hard. when you finally hang out with them after you break up you want to lean on them and hug them but you can't do that. that pain is so hard to bear. i did that today. i was at the park and more than once i had to walk away because i couldn't handle it and i started to tear up.

which brings me to another point. If an old boyfriend (namely my first boyfriend) and yourself becomes friends again should it be so easy to be really good friends again when you spent the last year hating him? he can read me like a book and when i walked away today he came and talked to me and actually made me feel better. i don't get it.

well thank you for reading if you did though i don't expect anyone too.